Sleep

Help, I need advice..
I keep waking up in the middle of the night. A thing that happened somewhere last year too.
Yesterday slept earlier, but still, woke up at 4am.. By the time, it was 7am, I were dead tired.

That time was due to mild depression.. This time round dunno.. Due to stress from new job? Unlikely.. I have not been late so far and is slowly adapting. Friends have been telling me to take things easy.. But there are just some things that you will never let go, maybe for now.. maybe I need more time.. or maybe I need to lose my memory. I can remember things at details to such extent that I can remember where and who I spent my last Christmas, my last New Year countdown, my last Bday, etc.

Too many things happened: relationship, new job, new way of life, sometimes meeting up to 4 friends individually in a nite! Trying to make myself busy so that I can forget. But now, I just tire myself out and still, I caught myself dazing and thinking.. Yesterday, I recalled one month ago, today was V day..

Time, please move faster so that I can forget everything. Or please, let me lose my memory.. Thank you.