Cancer and Death Demons

Juz received a sms from my frd.. He is looking for B+ platelets for his uncle who has cancer. I feel sad.. for his uncle (bec I know him), and also for my frd, bec his dad died of cancer too. I wonder how is he feeling now? Sad? Helpless? Nothing bec he has given up on hope of recovery for cancer?

Same case - cancer. Same scenario - relapse. I am also convinced that if you have cancer, you will die of cancer. My frd’s grandpa and dad died of cancer. He once told me that he is likely to have cancer too and his mum told me that next time I might have to make frequent trips to the hospital and take care of him.

My frd also has a funny yet practical concept. His grandpa died ard age of 80, his dad at age of 50. So he thinks he will get cancer even earlier and might die ard age of 40. So he wants to retire early and play hard now. His mum said she did not want to go through any treatment if she ever has cancer. At that time, I do not know what to say. What they said are not senseless. You can’t call it pessimistic if you have witnessed your family member went through the torturous treatments for years and encouraged them to fight even if they have less than 50% winning chance and eventually died of the demon illness.

I understood one thing at that time, being able to go where you like, do what you like and eat what you like is actually a blessing. A simple yet overlooked blessing. At that time, I remembered the poor dad wanted to go China (think he had not been there before and was thinking of going there when he gets older, but who knows…), the doctor did not really encourage due to several factors. So, the lesson is do what you want while you can. Do not wait. You think you can afford to wait, but actually it’s not your call.

That was the first time I know cancer demon. And first time I know death demon.

The first time I witnessed a person slowly losing his every breathe until the last breathe. A baby with his first breathe till a man with his last breathe. This is life?

Scary.